In contrast, I am loving the extra time with my kids. I love the slowed pace of all the extra things gone. I love the walks and seeing complete strangers wave to me from afar as if we were besties. As a girl who grew up in the 80's and 90's, I am reminded of a similar life. Sure we did a lot wrong back then, and I wouldn't survive now without online connection, but we moved at a much slower pace and I didn't realize just how wonderful that was until it came back with COVID-19.
At this stage in the game, my focus is on a hug from a friend or a coffee date or lunch out. I desperately want to quietly browse the aisles of a store and get lost in racks of junk I don't need. I want normal.
One day, though I'm not sure what day, this will all be over. We will be back to normal life, eventually, at least in some form. When I think of 9/11, getting back to normal came with permanent changes, but hope still has me longing for some form of the life I lived prior to Shelter in Place.
There is another part of me. This other part is calling for my attention. This other part of me wants to take a minute and re-evaluate my life. What if we could do more than just survive this pandemic?
There is an opportunity before me, don't I owe it to myself to take advantage of it?
Its an opportunity to re-calibrate. What was in my life before everything came to a screeching halt that never should have been there? What was I doing to impress others or do what was perceived as expected? What wasn't happening that needed to be? How could I keep some of the slow down and narrowed focus as I move out into life again?
Then I thought, I could write a letter to my future self. I have a notebook of letters to my kids, and as I go through it, I remember some amazing moments that I have sense forgotten. Being able to go there again, was wonderful and had I not written it down, I wouldn't have remembered it.
Happy Wednesday! I'm pretty sure its Wednesday and I'm pretty sure its still April. Not gonna lie, when I look at expiration dates in my fridge, it takes me a minute to figure out if they are still good. I know this is hard, but I know my God is bigger and we all can come out of this with more gifts than we ever expected! If you need someone to talk to, let me know. I'm here.