Their video released just before Christmas (which I can't find now, so if you find it, let me know) was about the ten year review from 2010 to 2020. As I watched their video I began to cry not just because of the progression of their family but because when I thought about what that 10 years meant for me I realized how much reality had changed, transformed really.
January 2010 I was a woman living a reality different than where I stand today. Kevin and I got married in 2005 and I stepped right into the step-mom role. I love those bonus daughters of mine (though it wasn't even close to easy in those first few years), but I desperately wanted my own kids. We tried but I was the woman who had been waiting 5 years to have a baby. I had been calling out to God wondering if I would ever have children on my own. It was a dream I had no control over and was left with a decision to trust God and promise to love him even if I never had children of my own.
But here I stand 10 years out with two beautiful babies of my own. My son is almost 9 and my daughter is almost 5 and I couldn’t be happier with the role of mom, and having gone through such a hard time and having the children in the first place makes motherhood all the more precious. I see the hand of God not only in the timing, but in how he has changed my heart in the motherhood process. I can tell you while life isn't always perfect, I am truly happy! I have joy with my family in the midst of bad days and that joy prevails because it comes in contentment and gratitude to God.
Life is funny, we hit hard times and we move past them. We are changed for going through them, but when you look back on life, sometimes you can begin to ask yourself, "Did that even happen?" Of course it did, but the events of my life seem like these stories that are part of me and some are horrors and some utter delights and yet they aren't my reality, today. Sometimes I feel like I've already lived several lives.
I can’t even imagine what the next ten years will hold, except in 10 years from now I will be the mother of a high school senior and an eighth grader and that is completely crazy to me. I’ll also be 51 so let’s not talk about that!
Let's end by talking about you, not me. Where are you? Have you come out of something horrible or are you in the midst of something you'd rather be done with? Remember time is slow in the moments but fast in the years. How can you bring more joy into the next 10 years? Surrender what you can't control and be proactive where you do have choices. Don't let life pass you by.
This year I want to be more proactive in writing my story and publishing a book (a first of many, if you know me, you know I have all the words). What about you? Tell me. Tell me your journey, tell me your goals, I'm listening! Also, Happy New Year!!!
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